Lois Flowers

Inside: As a young adult, I chose the career path that was safe and familiar. Looking back, though, I can see how one job prepared me for the next and, eventually, led to the kind of writing I do now. ~

I enjoy hearing inspiring stories about how people chose their professions—how they knew, sometimes at a very young age, what they wanted to be when they grew up.

The teacher who used to line up her dolls and instruct them in her childhood bedroom comes to mind, along with the healthcare worker who went through a medical crisis as a teenager and got such wonderful care from her nurses that she decided to become one herself.

I wish I had a similar anecdote, but I don’t. My answer to, “Why did you decide to major in journalism?” is far from inspirational, actually.

Led by Fear

I didn’t become a writer because I loved words so much or because the writing process held irresistible appeal to me. Instead, it was fear that led me into writing.

When I was a sophomore in high school, I had a hole in my schedule. Two options were available during that hour: newspaper class or Spanish. I didn’t know if I would be able to learn Spanish—OK, I was afraid I couldn’t—so I chose newspaper. I stayed with it the next year, and the year after that.

I enjoyed writing for the school newspaper. I developed decent reporting skills and even won some awards at the statewide journalism contests we went to each year.

The Safe Choice

When the time to choose a college major, I had no idea what to pick. So I decided to go with journalism—mostly because it was safe and familiar.

I didn’t want to fail at something new, so I chose what I knew.

I wrote for the university’s student newspaper for a couple of years. Then I moved to the media relations office, where I had to conjure up every ounce of courage I possessed to call professors and university staff members for interviews. I even considered changing my major during my junior year, but once again, I decided to stick with what I knew.

Never Say Never

All along, I had one stated career goal: I never, ever wanted to work for a newspaper. (Writing that now, I realize this makes no sense at all, given my college major. But that’s how I felt.)

My first job out of college was doing communications work for a large engineering firm in Kansas City. But when I got married a year later, the only position I could find in the area where Randy and I settled down was with the hometown newspaper in Bentonville, Ark.

My work as the paper’s business editor, then later as a business reporter for the statewide daily, was interesting and educational. I enjoyed learning about local companies and getting to know the people I interviewed.

The Hard Parts

I did not enjoy the competitive nature of the media industry, however. At times, the fear of being scooped by a reporter at another area paper literally caused me to throw up in the morning before I left for work.

I also was obsessed with accuracy. This isn’t a bad thing unless it causes you to check and recheck stories a dozen times, constantly worrying that you are going to make an error. Perfectionism co-mingled with fear does not make for a peace-filled life, let me tell you.

After about five years in the newspaper business, I went to work for a magazine devoted to the subject of theology and work. It was there that I first sensed a passion for writing about faith-related topics, which is primarily what I’ve focused on ever since.

In Retrospect …

It’s apparent that one job prepared me for the next, and that people I met in one workplace opened doors at future workplaces. I am so grateful for this.

But over the years, I’ve sometimes struggled with the fact that fear was, at least initially, such a motivating force behind my career choice. That’s not just uninspiring; it reveals a lack of trust that still makes me squirm.

Now, though, I choose to look at it through the lens of God’s grace and mercy. And here’s what I see.

God Knew

I may have majored in journalism because it was the safe and easy choice, but God knew the plans He had for me. Maybe my motivation was weak and flawed, but He used it to direct my steps.

He’s God. He can do that.

He used a dear journalism professor to provide wise counsel when I was contemplating a different direction in college. He used editors along the way to mold my skills and even expose weak spots in my character.

I see all that now. I’m glad for it.

And—despite my early struggles—I’m not sorry I became a writer. Even though I don’t have an inspiring story to explain why.

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How about you? Can you spot evidence of God’s direction and redeeming power as you look back over your life and career?

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In Case You Missed It:

Speaking of fear, I’m starting a subscriber-only email newsletter called Courage, Dear Heart. If you could use an extra dose of soul-level encouragement each month, I would love for you to subscribe.

As my way of saying thanks, you will receive a seven-day devotional called Faith, Fear, and the God Who Goes Before Us once you sign up.

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The newsletter will replace my third blog post each month. l plan to send out the first edition in October.

♥ Lois

P.S. I’m linking up this week with #tellhisstory, InstaEncouragements, Let’s Have Coffee and Grace & Truth.